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- March 10th, 2010
1) LOL ZQ HUNG OUT WITH MADONNA AT A PARTY. It will never not be funny. This is the first time in literally years when I haven't wanted that woman to just GO AWAY.
2) I’ve changed my mind - sitting alone in my room with a book is MUCH preferable to getting out there and earning my own money.
3) So a while ago I pretty much swapped bandom for Star Trek - both the new movie and RPF - and in that time Panic(!) at the Disco split in half, Fall Out Boy broke up, and now Bob Bryar has left MCR. The last one is the one I’m most upset about. There will always be space for Panic on my iPod, but I loved them in fic and didn’t necessarily pay to much attention to, y’know, them. Fall Out Boy? Same but different. They made music I will never let go of, and it does upset me that what they became was so very far from what they originally set out to be, and that they aren’t really close anymore, but - just a band, at the same time. Which seems like an odd reaction, if a reassuring one. I really love(d) Fall Out Boy, but I’m not in pieces now they’re gone.
However. If MCR broke up? If they were no longer the brotherhood they so often say they are? I’m pretty sure I would die a little inside. And now Bob’s gone. (Why always the drummer?) And I’m sad, but not heartbroken. I think the way the band have handled it is a little odd, though I respect their decision to put it straight on the blog. Is it just me, or is the fact that it was Frank who posted the message weird? It just seems like, if it was gonna be one of them who made the announcement, it would be Gerard. And couldn’t he have been a little clearer about the album? He mentioned new songs, so obviously they’re delaying it AGAIN, but it would have been nice if that had been specifically addressed. (By the way, I’m not saying I feel fucked over as a fan, I’m just… speculating…) And when I’m done thinking about that, I get onto WHY he left. It looks like it was a mutual decision, and COULD have just been for health reasons, but then - they made an album. They were just getting into promoting it. If Bob wasn’t gonna be able to do this, wouldn’t they have figured it out sooner? Then again, clearly I don’t know their lives, anything could have happened, yadda yadda. I just can’t help feeling it was more to do with relationships within the band, and that more than anything is what upsets me. I want them to be the ridiculous little family I’ve read about in fic. I want GerardMikeyBobRayFrank to be the definitive MCR, and now they won’t. But they’ll find someone good. I trust them.
Anyway, all this kind of feeds into vague half-thoughts I’ve been having lately about how healthy it is being this invested in the doings of real people who I don’t actually know. I guess the thing about fandom is, you can’t turn it off when you feel like it. I mean, fandom is a good thing - I don’t get super-involved in it because that’s not my style, but it’s still fun. It’s not so much fun when someone you’re obsessed with has something bad happen to them or whatever and it literally hurts you. Idk, *vagueness*, I guess this was the good thing about exclusively fangirling fictional people.